Wednesday, February 27, 2013


I keep trying to remember this, but it’s hard. I’m angry and I have these moments of pure rage. How do I learn to put things “away”?

I have been trying to concentrate on my jewelry and my sleepless nights seem to be very productive. Productive and painful! Last night I finished one piece and started another, very happy with the results but today I am paying for it!! My hands are stiff and painful today along with my knees and feet. I’ve taken more Vicodan in the past 2 days than I have in the last month!

I do not know if the physical problems are side effects= I have increased pain in my hands and feet, numbness in my fingers, worsening peripheral neuropathy? Swelling in my knee, which makes them so hard to move and stand up from sitting had to have fluid drained out of my knee and now both are swelled, This has been going on for almost 2 weeks.. … I recently switched to Aromason from Tamoxifin (because of the side effects) so is it the stupid anticancer drugs or is this sudden onset arthritis?? Anyone else having this?? The company does not list this as any “known” side effect but that, as we all know, means nothing. Please help!!   

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Everyday a reminder.



"Living with the fear of breast cancer is having a whale move into your living room. One day, it just appears and is always in the way. Over time, the whale can get smaller, but it never quite goes away. Maybe, sometimes, it gets down to the size of a magazine rack and once in a while you bump into it. Sometimes, it swells up in your face again, like when you have a mammogram and they call you back for extra views."
True, everyday there is a reminder.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

WTF is wrong with me???

 I am an emotional bag of rage and sorrow.
    I’ve been sick all week with a sinus infection, I lost my voice after an 8 hour band practice Sunday and the doc told me Monday no using my voice for at least 48 hours, till the antibiotics kick in, which was yesterday, so we were suppose to have practice tonight ( Thursday ), We have a big show Saturday and instead of practice I got in a huge fight with the bass player, who by the way is a HUGE ASS SUCKING JACKWAGON, so I walked out, started walking home cuz my ride wasn’t answering the phone and now my feet are on fire my hands are numb & tingly and my head is all stuffed up again. AND there is a blizzard on the way.. cuz we are booked to play and no one will come cuz of the snow.. SO now I’m going to go back to my craft room and cry some more cuz I swear by all that is holy I have PMS and I haven’t had THOSE parts in 4 years!! Maybe its sympathetic baby blues? My daughter is pregnant overly emotional and maybe thats rubbing off... IDK all I know is I am a raging bag of emotions and the SOL is all freaked out cuz he thinks he did something, and I’m just not talkin cuz he didn’t do anything but I will most certainly take it out on him cuz he is closest! . Ugh. Sorry. Thanks for reading the vent.... Hope your night is better! Oh yeah, Happy Valentines Day! SOL got me roses and a sweet card! Poor guy.
    I am still doing the show on Saturday I just really wonder if it’s all going to be worth it in the end. I “embarrassed” my sister, and “I should be ashamed of myself”. So I guess we shall see how this goes.  
    What do you do when your dream is in your grasp but is swiftly being pulled out of your hands? We have worked so hard for so long. Damn.

Sunday, February 10, 2013


So, I have been busy busy busy! The band is taking off finally! we have dates booked and lots of practice, LOL we even have groupies!! The last show we did I had so many people coming up asking where we were playing again and promicing they would be there.  Crossin my fingers, this next weekend needs to have a big turn out!!

I've also been working a bunch on my new obsession, Steampunk. I dont know what the deal is but I just cant get enough of the little watch parts and tearing watches apart, weird I know but the jewelry so far has turned out really cool! Pic to follow!

Opened a new storefront as well :


and of course Etsy:

and Listia :

Come on in! Check it out! Buy stuff! I can custom create as well!

Cuz, well, I AM THE BOMB!! lol!

Huge Statement Necklace

                                                           Mid-size functioning Locket