Don't ever forget, they could be gone in a moment.

I lost a very good friend yesterday.

 I can’t stop thinking about how senseless this all is. He knew he could get treatment, but he wasn't willing to give up any part of his life to be sick.

 I admire that, but I miss him just the same.

 He had the balls to grab life by the short hairs and run with it. He had a great 2 years, and did just like he told me he would; he “lived until he died”. 

 I will always remember our jokes and how he always told me the way it was. He didn't sugar coat anything for me, if he thought I was wrong he told me so, and he also told me why.

 And he always, always, had my back.

RIP my friend, I hope we meet again.  I love you!

None at all

Read her blog. Amazing

I'm to freaked out to write today, read this:

http://accidentalamazon.com/blog/

Good news for me, a new baby in the family! Bad news for my friend she lost her companion of 17 yrs to this fucking bullshit called cancer... Is this a checks and balances example? Cuz if it is? FUCK YOU! I want off this damn ride!

It spins and spins and I just want the world to stop for a minute, long enough to catch my breath.

Sarcasm! Because beating the hell out of people is illegal!: I Can Fix That- Bootleg Fixes (20+ Pics)

Sarcasm! Because beating the hell out of people is illegal!: I Can Fix That- Bootleg Fixes (20+ Pics)

ugh

Oh fuck this! My joints hurt, my feet are on fire, I have forgotten what its like to pick something up and not promptly drop it, my brain is in a fog, sleep is not coming.  I'm exhausted and every time I close my eye all I can think about is the stupid weird zappy pains I get and WHAT DO THEY MEAN??? I just saw the Onc she seems to thing all is fine but I still worry constantly. If the cancer doesn't come back I'm sure one of these bastard ass drugs are going to kill me.  Switched to Lyrica for the neuropathy and its making me fat. Experimenting with Aderall to see if it will help with the Chemobrain. I'm seriously tired of trying to remember which drug to take when and seriously? is this helping me??? Ugh. I just want to be a little bit like I used to be but I guess I have to face it, my body thinks I'm 90 and I really just want to take a walk, straight up, not bent halfway over and no limping! Ha!!

I haven't been posting because:
A. I'm inherently lazy.
B. I'm busy and lazy too.
C. Its hard to type with this stupid cast in my right arm.
D. Even though I have the cast,  I think I might have actually been in a good mood for the last few weeks!
E. New pharms for my neuropathy keep knocking me the fuck out.

So I found this new blog that I am absolutely in love with:  The Sarcastic Boob Blog
Go there! Read it! Like it! Face Book it! LOVE IT!!

And so I stole this from it, So fucking true!